Deep Love. Healing and moving on..

Good morning :)

I know it may not be morning time when you are reading this, but it is for me right now. It is a happy creative Sunday morning for me, and I am about to have a cup of coffee.

I am inspired this morning by a poem I wrote called Deep Love. (Picture Incoming)

I love handing someone a poem and saying, "What do you think this means". It's fun because I get to learn something about that particular person. Their interpretation says more about how they’re feeling than it does about the poem itself. I love to hear it.

For me, this Poem is an acknowledgment of all of the relationships I've had. Listen, I'm not in these streets don't take it like that. I've only had one romantic relationship. I am speaking about every relationship I have. Family, friends, foes, neighbors, or co-workers. Every relationship and the affect they have on my spirit. That impact runs deep, and it can be positive or negative. 

When you become aware of the fact that relationships can change the way you perceive the world or the way you see life, you begin to search for healing. Not necessarily the mending of the relationship with the actual person, but healing the impact that they have on your spirit. That person's physical presence or lack thereof doesn’t matter if they are still in your heart or on your mind. They can impact your behavior even when they're not in your life.

I say this as I am in the midst of one of the most difficult times in my life. I am currently dealing with a troubled relationship and that person's physical presence. I don't want anything to do with this rollercoaster. I am emotional, anxious, and quite frankly, Pissed off. I am battling for my peace every day. The one thing I have going for myself is Awareness. I see it, I'm not just existing in it.

Even though I'm knee-deep in bullshit right now, my head isn’t buried. I can see my path and my way out. I'm already healing. It's going to take some time and of course, distance to mend that sore spot in my soul, but that is my destination...Healed. 

I try not to get into the blame game, even though I do, that darned Ego has got a hold on me. Ultimately, I understand that life isn't easy for anyone, and we all have our battles. The Universe has a path tailored to each of us. We learn and grow differently and in our own time.

I know that forgiveness is the road to my healing. I also know that I’ve made mistakes and I am in no position to judge others (side note) This is a hard pill to swallow when you want to be mad and petty like I do in this current situation. I'm working through it.

I did not make my coffee and it is currently 12:12 (angel number). This is probably why I slid off my rocker a few paragraphs back. But I am going to have that cup and light one of my favorite candles, Deep Love.  I hope you light this candle too. It's amazing and addicting. More importantly, I hope you can reflect on your relationships and discover the impact that they've had on you. Heal the wounds and keep the Light they gave you. 

Until next time, create, create, and then create again.

Michelle.